I'm a consistently non-spectacular bi-polar diagnosed woman with 4 children. Sometimes that diagnosis gives me a lot of leeway as to coming up with highly creative, and yet off the activities. I sometimes wonder if these newer diagnoses had been around in the 17th century, would some of our best artists and writers have been institutionalized, or drugged into oblivion?

Don't get me wrong. There are many times when I'm feeling spectacular that its a good thing I'm on meds to bring me down a bit so that the consequencial part of my brain can coordinate with my impulse control problem.

It's just frustrating day to day being ok, ordinary, normal and frankly I'm fucking bored to death.........So I took up knitting needles six months ago and haven't been able to go a day with out knitting since.

I'm also in need of support. I live in a VERY CONSERVATIVE 100 percent mormon neighborhood. I grew up mormon, but I'm currently having trouble connecting with them. I'm looking to connect with Christians and Buddhists nationwide for spiritual guidance. I feel so out of place here. I often think that the only reason I'm diagnosed as being mentally ill is because I am completely totally repressed intellectually, spiritually, socially, and physically.

Help I need to know what it's like outside a microcosm of mormons! \
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Please respond anyone with anything.......oh....by the way.....i've taking up drinking to solve my problem....and I need help to quit.