Reading the last post, I couldn't help but think how pathetic it looked. Hey, it is what it is. I'm a week clean and sober now, a bit more clear headed except for the fact that I have the flu.

Ironic that now that I have an excuse to be zoned out on cold and flu meds,or better yet a hot toddy, I don't want to be. It must be a kharma thing.

I must be going on an upswing. Phew! I like those the best. Problem is, on the up part of being bi-polar, I tend to think I'm invincible, the house is never clean enough, I can't work out long enough, the 8 classes a week I teach aerobics isn't enough, and there aren't enough hours in a day. But, I will say that I'm much more pleasant to be around.

Mood swings are normal, what makes mine symptomatic is that I can go from being suicidal, to being the best leader in the free world in a 24 hour coarse.

The trick is......to be able to wait long enough through the downs to get to the ups.....and not let the ups fool me into thinking, I'm a regular Joe. The meds help, especially when I'm not mixing them with alcohol.

I picked up enough books for the weekend, "The Next Attack" About what Al-Quaeda (sp?) will probably do next, "I am Charlotte Simmons" by Tom Wolfe, Oprah's new book, "Elie Wiesel" by Marion Wiesel, and "No god but God" The Origins, Evolution and Future of Islam, by Reza Aslan.

Take care, please recommend books to me on the comments, when I'm not knitting, and I'm sitting still, that means I'm reading.

Ciao
Xena Warrior Princess